On My Mind ...

2005. Aspirations. Dreams. Hopes. Thoughts. Critical decisions. Life altering moments. Promises kept. Promises broken. Milestones reached. Milestones crossed. Bridges mended. Bridges passed. memories made. Memories relived. Pain felt. Pain caused. Pain assuaged. Experiences gained. Lessons learnt. lessons forgotten. Lessons applied. Habits picked. Habits kicked. Discover more about myself. Discover more to be discovered about myself. Love. Life. The works .... come to think of it ... whats new that the year brings? Then again .... whats not new ... new dreams .. new aspirations ... new hopes .... new experiences and finally new memories .... not much to look forward to ... or everything to excitedly wait for .... all's a matter of views. Pick yours.

Guns are locked n loaded, missiles have acquired targets and are ready to fire, fingers are relieving nervous tension by fiddling with the buttons that will unleash the horror,bombs are ready to be dropped. Everything is silent. Silent before the big moment. Waiting for the order. One command that will unleash hell. One voice that will forever alter the landscape of a nation and the destiny of it's people. An order that will condemn thousands, hundreds of thousands to death. How does a man ever get himself to give that order? How can anyone in their rational mind go ahead at that moment and do it? How does one decide the value of one human life against another? And finally how does one sleep at night after making that decision? How is that hands don't tremble while firing guns at brothers? How does one detach himself from the carnage all around? It would take a rational man a very very strong reason and his entire will to force himself to take such a step and even then he...

My favourite quotes. Some i live by,some i believe in, some i agree with and others i see a profound truth in. "Men prefer to believe what they prefer to be true." "The greatest dare is to speak the truth" "Never let your schooling interfere with your education" "You'll always regret things you did not do more than things you did" "Experience is the name we give to our mistakes" "One should love his country more than his family,his humanity more than his country" "It's easier to fight for your principles than to live by them" "Not many things matter much, and very few things matter at all" "Never judge someone before walking a mile in their shoes" "Humility, Respect and Honor : no matter what becomes the fate of man, these three virtues will never lose their due importance" "Humility in success and grace in defeat : these are the hallmarks of a real man....

hey ... So after a month of waiting n wondering .. of uncontrollable excitement n impossible imaginary flights ... i finally went to the ROCKTOBER fest featuring Velvet Revolver. There were three other punk bands... 'Breaking Bejamin' being the one worth any mention of those ... but who gives a hoot ... we were all there for one reason and one reason only .... to watch the snakepit come alive n the shirtless, faceless guy smoking that eternal cigarette mesmerise us using his AWESOME collection of mind boggling six-strings and two blessed hands. And deliver he did .... the setting was perfect ... the croud had managed to sqeeze itself to a pulp of human mass of unimaginable density .. hysteria was at breakneck levels before the set was even prepared for the masters of the evening and as the first of the 'slash signature series' marshal amplifiers went on stage ... the crowd managed another round of squeezing towards the stage .. though i could've sworn there...

I love football .. soccer ... the beckham game .. call it what you will .... its the universal human sport if there ever was any. I love it ... n like every other sport fan .. i hate that india suck at it. And unlike every other indian sport fan i simply don't accept the plethora of reasons we're given as to why we can't succeed. I'm the first to accept we suck ... and i'm the first to accept reasons provided daily as to why we suck ... but i absolutely refuse to accept or even listen to any argument that says we cannot stop being crap. We're 1 billion and finding 11 who can really really do well is not what i call impossible. So rather than going into why we suck or if we can make it up there .... i'll simply give a new idea. get the tata's and birla's of this country together ... throw in the vijay mallaya's , azim premji's and the narayanmurthy's and please invite the stupid sense of competition and one-upmanship that comes...

Twenty something years of student life have just started to show a slight hint of ending somewhere down the line and the real world seems to loom larger by the day . So what kind of a life do i want for myself ? This stream of thought has been knocking around in this head for a while but hasnt taken a concrete form till now and in that it's atleast 5 years too late . Going into "better late than never" crap might be appropriate at this moment but lets just dispense with that and get on with the real stuff . So exactly WHAT kinda life do i see myself leading ? Ok lets back track for a moment , lets go to the question : " What kinda life do i want ? " , because that needs to be clear before anything else . Ok i've kinda never been able to define any substantial and definitive set of parameters to base that decision on . I mean , i havent been able to find a set of variables whose degrees could help define the different lifestyles from which i must decide . ...

"I'm not completely sincere , even when i admit i'm not sincere"-The only human truth Are you completely honest ? When you voice an opinion , is it based completely on objective reasoning , or is it always tainted by your own interests , no matter how subtle , no matter how vague ? Can you say that when you talk , its only with the other persons interest in mind or simply using objective reasoning ? Do you step outside yourself and really really make a fair call ? Look deep inside and answer these questions to yourself . If you can look inside you and truthfully say you do manage that , i congratulate you . However , the guile of man is so deeply rooted that i doubt too many of us could claim that pureness of thought . That simple unadulterated thought must rank as one of the rarest things around . That brings us to the question : are those people who shamelessly follow their self interest really as bad as we see them ? If we all have our own self interest in mi...