On My Mind ...

Guns are locked n loaded, missiles have acquired targets and are ready to fire, fingers are relieving nervous tension by fiddling with the buttons that will unleash the horror,bombs are ready to be dropped. Everything is silent. Silent before the big moment. Waiting for the order. One command that will unleash hell. One voice that will forever alter the landscape of a nation and the destiny of it's people. An order that will condemn thousands, hundreds of thousands to death. How does a man ever get himself to give that order? How can anyone in their rational mind go ahead at that moment and do it? How does one decide the value of one human life against another? And finally how does one sleep at night after making that decision? How is that hands don't tremble while firing guns at brothers? How does one detach himself from the carnage all around? It would take a rational man a very very strong reason and his entire will to force himself to take such a step and even then he&

My favourite quotes. Some i live by,some i believe in, some i agree with and others i see a profound truth in. "Men prefer to believe what they prefer to be true." "The greatest dare is to speak the truth" "Never let your schooling interfere with your education" "You'll always regret things you did not do more than things you did" "Experience is the name we give to our mistakes" "One should love his country more than his family,his humanity more than his country" "It's easier to fight for your principles than to live by them" "Not many things matter much, and very few things matter at all" "Never judge someone before walking a mile in their shoes" "Humility, Respect and Honor : no matter what becomes the fate of man, these three virtues will never lose their due importance" "Humility in success and grace in defeat : these are the hallmarks of a real man.&

hey ... So after a month of waiting n wondering .. of uncontrollable excitement n impossible imaginary flights ... i finally went to the ROCKTOBER fest featuring Velvet Revolver. There were three other punk bands... 'Breaking Bejamin' being the one worth any mention of those ... but who gives a hoot ... we were all there for one reason and one reason only .... to watch the snakepit come alive n the shirtless, faceless guy smoking that eternal cigarette mesmerise us using his AWESOME collection of mind boggling six-strings and two blessed hands. And deliver he did .... the setting was perfect ... the croud had managed to sqeeze itself to a pulp of human mass of unimaginable density .. hysteria was at breakneck levels before the set was even prepared for the masters of the evening and as the first of the 'slash signature series' marshal amplifiers went on stage ... the crowd managed another round of squeezing towards the stage .. though i could've sworn there

I love football .. soccer ... the beckham game .. call it what you will .... its the universal human sport if there ever was any. I love it ... n like every other sport fan .. i hate that india suck at it. And unlike every other indian sport fan i simply don't accept the plethora of reasons we're given as to why we can't succeed. I'm the first to accept we suck ... and i'm the first to accept reasons provided daily as to why we suck ... but i absolutely refuse to accept or even listen to any argument that says we cannot stop being crap. We're 1 billion and finding 11 who can really really do well is not what i call impossible. So rather than going into why we suck or if we can make it up there .... i'll simply give a new idea. get the tata's and birla's of this country together ... throw in the vijay mallaya's , azim premji's and the narayanmurthy's and please invite the stupid sense of competition and one-upmanship that comes

Twenty something years of student life have just started to show a slight hint of ending somewhere down the line and the real world seems to loom larger by the day . So what kind of a life do i want for myself ? This stream of thought has been knocking around in this head for a while but hasnt taken a concrete form till now and in that it's atleast 5 years too late . Going into "better late than never" crap might be appropriate at this moment but lets just dispense with that and get on with the real stuff . So exactly WHAT kinda life do i see myself leading ? Ok lets back track for a moment , lets go to the question : " What kinda life do i want ? " , because that needs to be clear before anything else . Ok i've kinda never been able to define any substantial and definitive set of parameters to base that decision on . I mean , i havent been able to find a set of variables whose degrees could help define the different lifestyles from which i must decide .

"I'm not completely sincere , even when i admit i'm not sincere"-The only human truth Are you completely honest ? When you voice an opinion , is it based completely on objective reasoning , or is it always tainted by your own interests , no matter how subtle , no matter how vague ? Can you say that when you talk , its only with the other persons interest in mind or simply using objective reasoning ? Do you step outside yourself and really really make a fair call ? Look deep inside and answer these questions to yourself . If you can look inside you and truthfully say you do manage that , i congratulate you . However , the guile of man is so deeply rooted that i doubt too many of us could claim that pureness of thought . That simple unadulterated thought must rank as one of the rarest things around . That brings us to the question : are those people who shamelessly follow their self interest really as bad as we see them ? If we all have our own self interest in mi

hi, i belong to the human species . Stop. Before you go away in disgust listen to me . I'm here to do something my whole species has never done in its entire history . APOLOGISE . I don't know what kinda impact , if any , my words will have , but for my own selfish reasons , just to make myself feel better , i have to say this . I want to apologise on behalf of all of us freaks . My species is still not ready to even see its mistakes , let alone acknowledge them , but i see them . Atleast i think i do . I understand that i inherited this earth as a common place , meant to be shared with 30 million other species . I understand that i , like everyone else , was meant to establish a co-existence with other inhabitants of this wonderful place . Its the most natural thing all of you do . Yet me and my species have failed to do that . A simple task that even the most benign and simple creatures manage to do instinctively was lost on us . We've gone along a very different path .

i have this really interesting class this sem called professional ethics . It could be a really boring one but the prof really really lights up your brain ... and makes you think . We discuss actual cases where an ethical or moral decision was needed to be made and then try to see what we'd have done in the same place . You know .... place yourself in that person's boots . Really makes you think and the answers we give tell us sooooo much about our innner self . Ususally there's no wrong or right , it's simply the way you are . As our professor says , the objective of the course is to make us see where other people are coming from , their "DEFAULT moral positions" and to be able to make a good ethical judgement . Here's one of the really interesting ones .... it has everything , moral dilemna , life and death decision and its time critical . A real crunch situation thats very very possible . It's actually a real incident . Think what you'd have don

Dunno what i'm feeling right now .... a little weird ... just took the GRE . In the sense that i had three full months to prepare for it , i literally bombed it . On the other hand , with the kinda preparation i had , i did pretty good . I distinctly remember feeling a little queasy during the exam thinking i could've aced this if i had studied at all . What really bothers me is that this isn't a one-off , rather its the story of my life . Its a trend picked up a long time ago . i think one reason i can't shake this habit is that i kinda feel a weird sense of pride and genuineness taking an exam without preparation . Or lets say minimal preparation . Seems more challenging to some stupid corner of my brain . and somehow getting a half decent score like this gives a bigger thrill than acing a thoroughly prepared exam . But lets chuck that . it was an eventful day , talked to a lot of people back home . it was aditi's birhtday . called vinnie cuz i was soooo